Forty year old Vergin

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වසන්නට මැස්සෙකුටවත්

නොයෙදූ සුපිරි මැදුරක
දිව ආ මහලු පූසෙක්
මැදින් අවිගත් වීර සෙබලුන්

කැලල් ඇත ඇග පුරා විසුරුනු

පනත් නැත දැන් ඉනෙන් පහලත්
නොලත් අහරක් දින ගනන්වත්
බියක් නොදැනත් තබා අත් දෙක

දන මතින් මා එබී දෑසට

කන කලට නුඹ මහත් රසයෙන්
බලන් පිරිසක් නැතිව අහරක්
දැනගනින් දැන්වත් ටිකක් දී

නිවා සරතැස අනික්වුන්ගෙත් 

දෙසා බලල් රද මහත් අභිමන්

කොටා බොම්බිලි කටුවකුත්

නිවා කුසගිනි අසල මුල්ලක

වැටී සුව නින්දක

රෝසමල් සුරංගනාවී

ඇතත් දින ගණන් පසුවී

නැතත් නුඹගෙන් තවම වදනක්
දුකත් ඇයි මට නැතත් නින්දක්
නිතර සිත නුඹ ගැනම පවසත්

කුලුණු නුඹ සිත ලපටි තවමත්
තුරුණු සිත අවිහිංසක කෙලිලෝලකන්

තැලුණු මිනිසෙක් නේක හීසර වලින් 

සොයා සෙනෙහස අසා නුඹගෙන්
විඩා නිවනට නොවෙයි නම්

සසර මග නෙක දුර එකට යන්නට
කරපු ඇරයුම හැකිද නුඹ හට
දුරු කරන්නට - පමණකින් එක වදනකින්
පෙර සසරින් පටන් ආ කුමරියයි

සිතා මා වී දෝ මුලාවක්

Dearest Mom - Never think I will unsuccessful !!!

Dear Mom,

Keep Smiling. You got nothing to worry about this Big Niga. Instead you can be very proud of him. You always bringing me damn pressure and you are living in a damn pressure. It’s so sad to see your sunken eyes and hopeless face. I know you solely love me. But your’s pain is may be because society has compelled you to live for their dreams. So stop live for society. Stop living for me. I am an adult now. Live for yourself. This stupid unwise society always brings shit to your mind. Never let them keep you down. What the fuck the others have to do with my singleness or my loneliness or my unmarriedness. Lol. What do they have to do with my personality and my way of living?.

Those people who don’ t worth a shit will inquire you and hurt you, may be saying you have produced such unsuccessful brat – but it want at all for me. I was living my life happy and up to full. It just that I may have had lived some more time long alone because I couldn’t find the right partner. How can that be a shame for you. You can be very proud the way How I am treating you and my own sister. I can swear ahead god – that I never have used or cheated any women whom I could easily cheat for self. I never been to those brothels to pay womeness for money. I can swear I wasn’t a jackson on busses. I can swear I wasn’t after bitches down the streets. I can swear I didn’t t even touch a woman – with intention that I could satisfy my hormones by betraying her. I am too a natural man. I know I can control me than anybody else for the good faith. Let me be honest. I have expected love several times. Hehe And in return I have rejected several times. But I never have been a cheap man – and never have tried to revenge those feelings in return. Since that has been so – what the fuck I should worry about my life, and what else the hell that you expect out from a Real Man.

Ok, let me explain you the truth beyond the perceptions you lived upon so long. You go down every street meet these partying men and women around who did hurt you saying I am unmarried. Meet these so called superstars in your funny Teledramas. There are no absolute men. There are no ideal couples. They are all perceptions. But there are committed people. But there are faithful partners, like you and my father. If you can see beyond those boundaries and think about others, this world is a damn mess. Majority People pretend what they are not. When you actually find those cheap people, copulating every bitches down the streets, and under every brothel, do you want to me to be the same somebody who is unfaithful to his wife, do you want me to be another cheap politician who dance and straying out with every possible women that smell bad - so understand, my youth and my life was different than the majority cheap cunts you see in those movies and among your annoying set of dream people. I never mean there are nt good people. There are enough good people. Their voice is low. You only get intimidated to those lousy bad asses who just show off. So never let yourself break ahead them. I don’t know about my future. But that you best know my past well. It never makes me regret. It only make me innocently proud and self-worth. If you think I still going to take this stress in live in pain – then there will not be any worth on the virtues we believed in.

Can you remember – those days, specially my teen, I was such a poor fat non regarded brat, we did not even had fancy shoes, clothes, bikes, toys, sports and amusing social acceptance. We marginally lived for the meal. Even those days those so called relations friends neighbors who inquire about my success never called you and asked what going on. They never let share at least their genuine thoughts and regards. Now they are calling you because they want us. They want to compare us. They want to benchmark their kids against us. Not because they love you. Not because they truly do care you. They know they are unsuccessful.

Remember - those days they only called you during the exam period to know my results. See how much i have failed. See i am in the worst group. Remember they only called you during when I get hurt in a match or in some failed attempt. It’s their curiosity. They just want information. Never to help your grieve. Now they call you when they got a new car, when they got their son/daughter married, when they got kith and kins. It is neither bad of them. That is how the society is. So understand – no point of getting your self demoral and live in pain. The world is like that. May be the world can’t occupy true genuine people. May be world got enough. But we may have hardly come across them. Any ways we can’t expect things to be perfect. So we can’t expect people to be perfect either.

Never try to compare me with my same age people. Do you seriously think all these couples married my age and actually live happy? It is not so. Only those who have understood the life and its true nature may live happy actually. I bet that is never the majority. But a very niche minority. Understand - it’s just that you always hate my dreams. It’s just that you always wanted to see me as somebody else you like to see in me. It just that your’s and mine’s dreams doesn’t coincide mum. So understand this difference. Stay happy and proud. When you living like this in your old age – it make me damn pain and my life gonna be very painful too. Since you did everything for us - there left nothing for you to worry in this life. A person needs to be gifted with a matching marriage. If you try to sprain it artificially exceeding the god’s will, it will always fail. That will be more painful for you than now. Now it is our turn. Let us be our selves. Things will happen only at the right time. If they don’t happen – no point worrying either. Let us never compromise our own dreams. Let’s stay happy. We don’t have another thousand years to live together.

Never complain. Never Compare !!! Success is only when you are happy. Happiness needed to be earned individually. Others cant bring that. Happiness from a Marriage is a heavenly gift needed to be earned hard either. It never can be achieved with illusive fame, sophisticated PHDs and Highest paid jobs. Happiness is easy to achieve as long as you live to yourself and up to your faith regardless comparison. It’s a state of mind only a rich set of minds can keep. Never make the simple things complex and let get yourself pain.

Never doubt me. Always spare fresh positive thoughts. I l be fine. You will be fine too.

Your’s loving Notorious Son.

සමන් ගිරි සමනලී නුඹ හට

සප්ත කන්‍යා ගිරි මැදින්
සමනල කදු සිරින් මුසපත් නොවී මම්

නුඹ සොයා දුරු වන මං මැදින්
සපු මලින් විකසිත දිය වැල් පිසන්

එන සුළඟටත් කිව්වා

රුපු යුදෙන් නොසැලී රැදුන් 
දෙල්ගමු දලදා හිමි පියසත් වැදන්

සමනල ගිරින් අනුහස් දහස්

සමන් දෙව් රද ආසිරි අරන් 

සීත ගඟුලෙන් කුරු ගඟට දිවයන 
මිණි කැටත් සැඟවූ පුලින තල  මත
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පෙර සසරෙත් පටන් මතු සසර භවයම

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සඳදුරු නුබ අදුරු කුසතුල

දිදුලනා තරුවක් සුකෝමල

පායලා දුරු වලා පෙන අතරින්

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ධවල පෙති රොන් අතර සිරවුනු

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