Dear Mom,
Keep Smiling. You got nothing to worry about this Big Niga.
Instead you can be very proud of him. You always bringing me damn
pressure and you are living in a damn pressure. It’s so sad to see your
sunken eyes and hopeless face. I know you solely love me. But your’s
pain is may be because society has compelled you to live for their
dreams. So stop live for society. Stop living for me. I am an adult now.
Live for yourself. This stupid unwise society always brings shit to
your mind. Never let them keep you down. What the fuck the others have
to do with my singleness or my loneliness or my unmarriedness. Lol.
What do they have to do with my personality and my way of living?.
Those people who don’ t worth a shit will inquire you and hurt you, may
be saying you have produced such unsuccessful brat – but it want at all
for me. I was living my life happy and up to full. It just that I may
have had lived some more time long alone because I couldn’t find the
right partner. How can that be a shame for you. You can be very proud
the way How I am treating you and my own sister. I can swear ahead god –
that I never have used or cheated any women whom I could easily cheat
for self. I never been to those brothels to pay womeness for money. I
can swear I wasn’t a jackson on busses. I can swear I wasn’t after
bitches down the streets. I can swear I didn’t t even touch a woman –
with intention that I could satisfy my hormones by betraying her. I am
too a natural man. I know I can control me than anybody else for the
good faith. Let me be honest. I have expected love several times.
Hehe And in return I have rejected several times. But I never have been a
cheap man – and never have tried to revenge those feelings in return.
Since that has been so – what the fuck I should worry about my life, and
what else the hell that you expect out from a Real Man.
Ok, let
me explain you the truth beyond the perceptions you lived upon so long.
You go down every street meet these partying men and women around who
did hurt you saying I am unmarried. Meet these so called superstars in
your funny Teledramas. There are no absolute men. There are no ideal
couples. They are all perceptions. But there are committed people. But
there are faithful partners, like you and my father. If you can see
beyond those boundaries and think about others, this world is a damn
mess. Majority People pretend what they are not. When you actually find
those cheap people, copulating every bitches down the streets, and
under every brothel, do you want to me to be the same somebody who is
unfaithful to his wife, do you want me to be another cheap politician
who dance and straying out with every possible women that smell bad - so
understand, my youth and my life was different than the majority cheap
cunts you see in those movies and among your annoying set of dream
people. I never mean there are nt good people. There are enough good
people. Their voice is low. You only get intimidated to those lousy bad
asses who just show off. So never let yourself break ahead them. I
don’t know about my future. But that you best know my past well. It
never makes me regret. It only make me innocently proud and self-worth.
If you think I still going to take this stress in live in pain – then
there will not be any worth on the virtues we believed in.
Can
you remember – those days, specially my teen, I was such a poor fat non
regarded brat, we did not even had fancy shoes, clothes, bikes, toys,
sports and amusing social acceptance. We marginally lived for the meal.
Even those days those so called relations friends neighbors who inquire
about my success never called you and asked what going on. They never
let share at least their genuine thoughts and regards. Now they are
calling you because they want us. They want to compare us. They want to
benchmark their kids against us. Not because they love you. Not because
they truly do care you. They know they are unsuccessful.
Remember - those days they only called you during the exam period to
know my results. See how much i have failed. See i am in the worst
group. Remember they only called you during when I get hurt in a match
or in some failed attempt. It’s their curiosity. They just want
information. Never to help your grieve. Now they call you when they got a
new car, when they got their son/daughter married, when they got kith
and kins. It is neither bad of them. That is how the society is. So
understand – no point of getting your self demoral and live in pain. The
world is like that. May be the world can’t occupy true genuine people.
May be world got enough. But we may have hardly come across them. Any
ways we can’t expect things to be perfect. So we can’t expect people to
be perfect either.
Never try to compare me with my same age
people. Do you seriously think all these couples married my age and
actually live happy? It is not so. Only those who have understood the
life and its true nature may live happy actually. I bet that is never
the majority. But a very niche minority. Understand - it’s just that
you always hate my dreams. It’s just that you always wanted to see me as
somebody else you like to see in me. It just that your’s and mine’s
dreams doesn’t coincide mum. So understand this difference. Stay happy
and proud. When you living like this in your old age – it make me damn
pain and my life gonna be very painful too. Since you did everything for
us - there left nothing for you to worry in this life. A person needs
to be gifted with a matching marriage. If you try to sprain it
artificially exceeding the god’s will, it will always fail. That will be
more painful for you than now. Now it is our turn. Let us be our selves.
Things will happen only at the right time. If they don’t happen – no
point worrying either. Let us never compromise our own dreams. Let’s
stay happy. We don’t have another thousand years to live together.
Never complain. Never Compare !!! Success is only when you are happy.
Happiness needed to be earned individually. Others cant bring that.
Happiness from a Marriage is a heavenly gift needed to be earned hard
either. It never can be achieved with illusive fame, sophisticated PHDs
and Highest paid jobs. Happiness is easy to achieve as long as you live
to yourself and up to your faith regardless comparison. It’s a state of
mind only a rich set of minds can keep. Never make the simple things
complex and let get yourself pain.
Never doubt me. Always spare fresh positive thoughts. I l be fine. You will be fine too.
Your’s loving Notorious Son.